Breathing

There are few cds that I can just lie down and listen to without needing to be busied by anything else, and Lifehouse's No Name Face is one. Their singles are released on the radio and sound quite secular when you first hear them, but if you really examine the lyrics and then listen to the entire album, you realize that they are in fact, Christian. It turns out that they were a Christian band before they were released as mainstream. I have a couple of their cd's and No Name Face is my favourite. I bought it when I was going through a particularly difficult time and found it really spiritual. At the time I was learning how to trust God and rely on Him for helping me through challenges.

I've always used music to comfort, energize, or relax me, and it's nice to also have songs that can help me connect with God.

Here are the lyrics to my favourite song on No Name Face; it's called "Breathing".

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what i'm gonna do when i get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And i'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God, which one's you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these caluses off me one more time

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah

Oh i don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause i just wanna be here now

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

My Rant

I'm a pretty laid back person in general, but there's one thing that gets me really angry and that is people's blatant disregard for the environment. Everyone has heard about global warming, recycling and the dangers of pesticides, but no one really does much to help the earth out. When I watch the news and I hear about the things like the very real possibility of polar bears becoming extinct it actually brings me close to tears. The government is no help at all either. Bush wants to lift the moratorium that Clinton placed on oil drilling up North, and Harper wants to back away from Kyoto and do his own thing. I know that Kyoto isn't perfect and if it works, will bring only emmisions back to where they were back in the 90's when they were already a problem, but it's something. If he doesn't think it's going to be effective, why doesn't he just add these other policies that he thinks are so great on top of Kyoto?
Bush says that if the moratorium was lifted then the price of oil would significantly decrease. This doesn't sound like someone who wants to explore renewable resources and reduce dependence on oil like he has claimed (He may have said foreign oil, but if he gets his way and drills for oil in our North it's still foreign).

If gas prices stay where they are maybe it will make people think twice about driving as often as they do and espcecially about driving the gas-guzzling SUV's and Hummers I see everywhere here in Vancouver.

Sometimes I just feel at a loss. I know I'm not perfect when it comes to caring for the environment, but a lot of my decisions are made with the earth in mind. Why can't other people just see the importance of this? Why do the majority of people continue to mock environmentalists and call us "hippies" and "granola crunchers"?

A Walk in the Park

It's so gorgeous outside right now! Even though I might not be out there much today due to housework, I'm loving having all the wondows open and the sun shining in. Scott and I went for a walk in Stanley Park on the weekend and it was really nice. We hadn't gone for a walk there when it hasn't been raining in a long time so it was a nice change. The forest looks really nice with the sun shining through the trees on the moss. I'm hoping it stays nice right into next weekend so we can get out and enjoy it some more.

So I'm not quite the girl next door, according to Cosmo...

Out of boredom, I took an online quiz from a magazine to find out "how sexy my style" is and it turns out I'm "subtly sexy". I don't know if I agree neccesarily, but there didn't seem to be a lot of options for me. The very first question was: What's your bathing suit preferance? A) a one piece with a wrap, B) bikini bottoms, or C) a tankini. I had to laugh when in the little paragraph at the end of the quiz summin up who I am they said, "...but since money doesn't grow on trees, you have perfected the art of paring a pricey jacket back to a sexy halter top from the good old Gap". A halter top from the Gap would be too much money! Besides, don't get me started on the Gap's image...
Oh yeah, and my style twin is Jennifer Aniston...I doubt it.

A nice day

I think I heard rain at some point during the night or early this morning, but by the time I woke up the sun was shining and the birds were singing. Not a bad thing to wake up to on a day off. When I went out this morning I decided it was time to wear my flip-flops and try to break them in again for the summer months. I recall last year when I bought them and went through a pack of blister Band-Aids really quickly. It was so nice out and my feet weren't cold at all during my short walk towards the beach that when I went to the doctor's office this afternoon I wore my flip-flops again, but it had clouded over and my feet did get cold. It's ok, though. Although I was cold, I'm happy to say that I didn't get any blisters.

It kind of stunk that I had to wait for the bus for a super-long time, though, and eventually had to walk to a different bus stop because it seemed like the small bus I wanted to take wasn't coming. There was a sign at the stop about how as of April 24th bus service will be changed because of the construction of the Canada Line skytrain in preparation for the Olympics, but it didn't say anything about the bus I wanted today...but it never came. Instead I got on the crowded Davie bus and had to stand with my groceries. I made it my groceries and I are all in one piece.

Can anyone tell me why Zeek, our way-too-furry cat thinks it's such a good idea to cough up hairballs everywhere except the easy-to-clean linoleum floors? More specifically, in my slippers...

Well, time for me to stop eating Easter chocolate and cook a healthy supper to cancel out the chocolate.

Does anybody have any suggestions for good books about connecting with God. Maybe something specific to women. I've been feeling like a bad Christian lately and I feel like I need something that will refocus by spirit. I haven't been to church in weeks because I haven't felt motivated. The few churches I've ventured to here haven't really filled me up like I would have liked. There is one church in South Van that's not too bad, but I'm not crazy with how long they sing before they start the service. I end up going late so that I get there for the message instead of all the singing, but I feel rude doing that. It's also not that close so since I'm not motivated, it takes more for me to get there. I feel like I'm becoming materialistic and shallow because my priorities haven't been where they should be.

Could you send some prayers so that Scott and I could find a church that we both like and feel comfortable in? It would be really nice to connect with some people here.

Spring!

Spring has arrived! We're seeing fewer rainy days now and the sun is finally trying to make itself more noticeable and warmer. We've had a few days of pleasantness now. On Sunday went to see the movie "Inside Man". It's a bank robbery movie, but really well done with lots to figure out. I never like the idea of going to action/drama movies, but I usually end up enjoying myself.

I worked last night, but working nights isn't so bad anymore. They've changed the hours from being open until 9pm every night except Sunday, to being open until 9pm on Thursdays and Fridays only and 7pm every other night. I never liked being out that late. I'm usually a little more nervous when I'm out at night by myself, and waiting for the bus downtown at 9:30 wasn't always great. Besides, now if I have to close I still have a good chance of hanging out with Scott before he goes to bed.

I'm off for a few days now, though, and I plan to keep working on the baby blankets for Scott's cousin. She just had twins a couple weeks ago; a boy and a girl, and I need to finish the second blanket. I'm so glad I'm able to make straight blankets now. I have a chest full of crooked ones that my kids will be stuck with!